haha i haven't posted in forever but i couldn't resist!

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet & current street name)

Pussy Severn

2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (fav ice cream flavor, favorite cookie)

Wildberry Yoghurt - Choc Chip

3. YOUR "FLY Guy/Girl" NAME: (first initial of last name, first three letters of first name.)

H.C.Ash

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)

Orange Monkey

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)

Kiri Melbourne

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name, last 3 letters of mom's maiden name)

Herasten

7. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd favorite color, favorite drink and put "The" in front of it)

The Green Fruit Tingle

8. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers)

Harry Clyde

9. STRIPPER NAME: (the name of your favorite perfume/cologne)

Vanilla Musk (brands are meh)

10. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother & father's middle name)
Anita Leighton

the beginning of something beautiful
'twas written in the stars
the magic through the mayhem
a life that will be ours


a scene too rich for the pencil to portray

i want one of those

well anyway, just so you know, i know its early but personally, there's gotta be something exciting to look forward to, plus its our first taste of freedom, so lick long and lick hard!!!

...i will simply amuse myself with the hilarity of that last phrase:)

see you tomorrow
xo

The above is what i started writing on the stated date. then i talked to jaimee and didnt finish but because its written i thought i may as well send it, expecially now i have FINALLY figued out how to use that damn lj cut thing.

Tis my birthday soon. 
I wish it wasnt.
Issues with people mean i dont know if i actually want to be with them on my birthday, but i know if im not with them ill be sad.
Birthday's mean so much to me and now this one is filling me with dread and i hate that. birthdays have ALWAYS meant so much to me, not just mine but everyones yet now, now im worried my friend will see me purely because she feels obliged and not because she wants to.

why do people have to mean so much? why do they have to hurt so much? why do i have to take everything so seriously? its my own fault, i hurt so much because a. i let people get away with it, and b. im so paranoid.

everyone thinks im so confident. how else am i supposed to play it? i copy my brother, he's loud and funny and everyone has always loved him, so i try and do the same. it backfires yet i cant stop because it is me now yet it makes me so paranoid. i dont mean to offend, i dont mean to overtake, to overrule.

Jo, im so sorry bout your birthday. i know its annoying when people say i know how you feel and then you nod, yet inside your screaming NO YOU DONT but thankyou for trying... so i will say this (which i have just stolen from a book i am reading). I cannot feel what your feeling but i know what your feeling.

Gawd everything is just such a big deal, and yeah you can try all that perspective shite but in the end all you have is you and your emotions which seem to come from an entirely different part of you, a part you have no control over and all you can do is wait for it to show itself and then you're left to deal with it. i'm not sure if that makes sense. its like if you cant decide between two things so you flip a coin and usually if its landed on the one you subconsciously didnt want then you know, all of a sudden, what you really want.

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I will be sad and say school seems to be anchoring me. My friend just tlaked to me and said at the moment she hates all her subjects, and school and its pointless. which it is but thats beside the point for this story. but at the moment school is the only thing i can rely on, and its not that i want to do exceptionally well or beat people or not lose against peole, its because if i get what i want from school it means i have some control and right now its all im able to cling to. 

everything else is going haywire.

I suppose all the above is quite mournful and well i was going to say oblique simply because it sounds cool but i have no idea what it means, i may be getting it confused with bleak...
but i  must say

I so excited, about life i mean. i realise that all the above is so overly contrasting to that but i know it will pass, and then, of course, there will be new stuff to deal with, but thats the whole point. in the end i'm not worried about what job i get, what enter i get, how much money i earn, i know ill get there in the end and not just because of something like fate or just 'because' but because you're all like me in that everyone of us is capable and i wont 'sap'arise it but you know what i mean. No of us are stupid, and if i can see all of you turning out amazingly hopefully i wont be that far off either. Tis the journey that counts right? 

As long as you have people.....................stupid viscious circle...

o·blique    ( P )  Pronunciation Key  (-blk, -blk)
adj.

1. 1. Having a slanting or sloping direction, course, or position; inclined.
   2. Mathematics. Designating geometric lines or planes that are neither parallel nor perpendicular.
2. Botany. Having sides of unequal length or form: an oblique leaf.
3. Anatomy. Situated in a slanting position; not transverse or longitudinal: oblique muscles or ligaments.
4. 1. Indirect or evasive: oblique political maneuvers.
   2. Devious, misleading, or dishonest: gave oblique answers to the questions.
5. Not direct in descent; collateral.
6. Grammar. Designating any noun case except the nominative or the vocative.

nothings ever perfect unless you let it be

it's been so long since i've written on this , like seriously almost a year and i came back on last week sometime and read some of your stuff and now i hate to think of how much of you ive missed out on.

Jaimee's pics were sort of a shock. i can remember when they were taken. and we have changed so much, even though i can still see what i saw in everyone that first year so much more has been added that its hard to decide whether those layers are the reall you or simply protection from what you dont want others too see. I miss you 9E i dont seem to have kept up with you which makes me sad and at the same time so much has been going on I tend to forget, and i dont mean people i mean the times you had with those people. and then the photos come up and you go wow.

so into yr 12 we go eh?
my friends who've just finished say they've kept in contact with those they really wanted to but i hate to think of all the things i will miss out on because one or both of us are too lazy. but i suppose seras seras:)

Be well, safe and remember that i love you, wherever you go, and whoever you become.

Ich langweile mich!!!!! ARGGHHHHH

ëäöüß

Ich habe mich zu shrieben dieses auf Deutsch entschließen weil ich SEHR langweile mich!!! Und dann ich kann dieser Ausdruck und zeigt es zu Frau! Ich sollte Mathematic machen aber ich habe keine Lust. Ich weiß! Nein, ich wieß nicht. Tschuß oder whatever

Wow i haven't been here for ages.

Jo i don't know if you read this but i'm sorry if i keep walking passed i do wanna talk to all you guys but i've always got something on argh. It's so wierd (to steal from Patsy) we've all drifted away so quickly:( Anywho, there is no neccissity in reading this as i'm sure those last few words are not actually a proper sentence. I'm BORED!!! help me!!!:) ta ta, hope everyone has a good hols!!!!

 

 

( Unnesesartyfhgrfd (i hate that word) stole this from chryssie... )

What is your biggest fear?